Second Time's a Charm

Friday, March 19th, 2010 @ 12:24am
1. I have paperwork to file for the 20th...and I forgot until about 10 minutes ago...crap...
2. I think too much...and worry too much
3. Sometimes I forget...okay, you got me...I always forget.
4. I want to get married in July [like we planned] but I can't do this alone
5. A teeny tiny little part of me wants another baby...someone come beat me please?!
6. I NEED A GAY FRIEND!!!
7. I need more mommy time... What am I talking about...I need mommy time. Period!
8. I would like some more friends...I'm lonely
9. I wish my kids would listen to me...bahaha! Good luck there!
10. I wish my house was cleaner...and that I had the energy to clean it.
11. I want my baby to stay a baby forever...just not the destructive "Children of the Corn" baby that she is currently being.
12. I *need* an ultrasound. I've cancelled it 4 times now, and I really need to find out what this lump is on the back of my neck...it is bothering me.
13. I like wine...A LOT...but don't like the way I feel in the morning
14. I need to loose weight...I can't believe I've piled it back on.
15. I'm really excited that I've met a new friend [Sherri] I think we are very similar people and have a lot in common. I just hope I don't screw it up somehow. I'm pretty damn good at sabotaging my own life lately.
17. What is wrong with my body lately??!
18. My bra strap is bothering me...but only on my right shoulder.
19. Someone asked me for the time today. I giggled because the watch I am wearing hasn't worked in about 6 months. The only reason I wear it is because it is pretty. lol! She giggled too after I told her this...but I still didn't help her with the time! lol!
20. I'm really excited about getting onto my sewing machine, but I never have the time and I always have the baby.
21. I wish my brother and I were closer I wish my brother wasn't such a tool.
22. I miss my mommy...a lot
23. Rachel misses my mommy a lot
24. I need to go grocery shopping...crap...
25. I wish my bestie Ashley#2 lived closer to me and/or drove a damn car!!
26. I don't like asking people for things, or sometimes accepting things from people. I feel bad asking for things, like, I'm needy or unable to help myself. I don't like accepting things from people because some people are mean and when they give you something, they usually expect something in return. Not all people are like that, just people lately...damn people!
27. I don't get out anymore...people wonder why I'm grumpy.
28. I need a ledger book...
29. I want to go to Walmart, but I can't get there :(
30. I'm tired ALL THE TIME...
31. I love my children, but they are making want to poke myself in my eye with a blunt object repeatedly (I blame March Break)
32. I <3 blogging!
33. I need to open a bank account for my business...oops!
34. OMG!! SINCE WHEN DO EARWIGS FLY?!??!
35. I realized that I just skipped number 16...lmao!
36. I have an insane irrational fear of earwigs, and, go figure, 5 minutes after Steven [my usual hero] goes to bed, one appears on the chair beside me...THEN FLYS AWAY!!?! :s
37. I'm currently having the most awesome Facebook conversation ever, over, you guessed it, the FLYING EARWIG!! ...that thing is going to consume my life before you know it...
38. I'm hoping to make it to 40, I don't know why...I'm OCD like that.
39. Speaking of OCD, I'm noticing that the older I get, the most obsessed I am with little things...like the soap container being turned a certain way, or a towel being hung a certain way. Even something as simple as the way a piece of paper sits on a table...OH GOD! I'm turning into my mother!! ...it really isn't a bad thing...but she is the most obsessive person I've ever met!! lol!
40. I get my baby bonus tomorrow...I want to go to Walmart...go grocery shopping...get my ledger book...*look* at fabric. I need to get there...I want a "shopping with the girls" day. That would be fun!
41. My bum is going numb.
42. Last weeks obsession was Chai tea and Chai lattes...now I've moved onto a new love, Canada Dry White Tea Ginger Ale with Raspberry. It sounds complicated, but I love it!! (Ok Canada Dry, where is my compensation for the advertising? lol!)
43. The boys get to see their mother tomorrow night...not looking forward to this weekend. They usually act like monsters the following Saturday and Sunday after they see "her".
44. I need business to pick up...
45. I'm pretty sure I'm tired...
46. Tomorrow is Friday...it feels like Sunday.

I'm sure I could go to 50, maybe even 60, but more likely 70 or 80 [because I'm alone and have 600 million things running though my head right now] but I'm going to stop it here, go for a smoke and then to bed. Nighty night! xo

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